If you want to read this journal that I just posted, you're more than welcome to because I want to get a lot of things off my chest, and hopefully for good. Hopefully there are some few friends that will understand me after this. I know that I haven't been really active on DeviantArt for the past few years, especially since the Alola league incident. Not only did that disgrace of an Arc on a disgrace saga made me despise the main Pokémon anime, I had to quit the Pokémon XY Fan Series for my mental health and sanity. From then until now, and I hope this is the last time I am addressing this abomination, I have so much hate in me when it comes to that particular anime and the character associated with it. I hate too much and it would almost consume me to pure hatred in my heart. I know I talked to my psychologist last year since my dad died and the funeral fight (My mom is still having a hard time since and could never forgive nor like those who she said to those that dishonored dad), but I feel like the main Pokemon anime is running loose in my mind. I had nightmares of that piece of trash and expected me to come back to it. I will tell you straight up. I WILL NEVER GO BACK TO THE POKEMON ANIME!!!!! What happened has burned bridges and it will never go away, as well as a Gary-Stu that is a disgrace to Pokemon Trainers, if more, fictional characters and heroes. No matter how many good headcanons or good fanfictions and rewrites Pokemon has when it comes to the anime, the damage is done. I'm at that point to just stop focusing on Pokemon content completely and move on with life. I haven't written fanfictions nor made fan art of my OCs since the incident. Hell, I barely interact with anyone on Deviantart because of my ideas. other people will use my headcanons to take advantage and fuck me over and get me chewed out, like I dealt with back before the Shit and Manure Saga, especially the main Pokrmon anime in general, goes slowly into the eternal dumpster fire of a special world of hate. I have a VERY HARD TIME trusting people, in the real world and online. My mom told me that if there are true people that will lend you a hand, that's great. If not, I will be very disappointed. She also told me that people are a disappointment, and the real world has a lot of evil people. This is not like the trashy Team Rocket thinking they're evil when they're trash and saying, "I'll get you next time!" or "We're blasting off again" while unrealistically flying up to the stratosphere. There are truly evil people that will take advantage and corrupt vulnerable people with no ill regrets to the point of no return! I can't stand being taken advantage of and if something were to happen to me, mom will avenge me, I don't know, but she will since we, plus our dog, are the only ones we got for now. I don't like to bring up the topic, and I will never do something irrational like this, but if something were to happen to me before mom, I specifically told her no Trash can from the Pokemon anime. Pikachu, I will bite my tongue since there are a million Pikachu, but the Trash can from the anime can go to hell for all I care.  I've been thinking about my upcoming project recently, and I know I should've done it back in 2019. But I don't know if I'm gonna be doing it because of a particular something I can't stand. I may have to start focusing on original concepts and characters. Speaking of it, just to let you know I may start going to the University this fall. Hopefully when I do get there, I may have to start focusing on my original content and characters, as well as focusing on my gaming degree programs and the programs they do to create art and games like drawing techniques, Adobe stuff, 3D Program tools like Blender, the motion graphics, etc. I remember back when I told you guys I would go to the Media Arts Degree Plan. I haven’t started university yet, but given enough time, I decided to pursue a gaming degree and achieve my dream job as a game designer. Starting fall, it would take me at least 3 years (Since I had to take a few marketing and Psychology classes, as well as a university physics class) to get my bachelors as a transfer from college that I graduated with Digital Media associates. Honestly, this year, we can leave behind what we hate the most, but at the end of the day, only we can make a difference and do the stuff we love and the true people that will support us to the end.